Positive Affirmations

Let me start today's blog by saying I am not always a positive Ray of Sunshine. I know you are a little in shock at this confession, and may need a moment to process, I understand.... There are many of my close loved ones that endure less than positive moments from me, and put up, or tolerate another side of Stacy.  It's only there maybe 10 percent of the time, but it does exist...I consider myself  a work in progress, always trying to learn to be a better person, do the right things say the right things,  voice my opinion in a gentler way :)

I have always been so independent, and to rely on anyone to do anything for me has been a real challenge.  Don't get me wrong I have a side to me that I am sure enjoys getting catered too, but I guess what I am saying is I like to be in control of when I can be independent and when I need to be catered to lol.... it is hard to ask and hard to accept help...part of its  pride, and a learned behavior, most of it is is I would just like to do it myself!  

I think I always felt it was a sign of weakness if you had to ask for help.  It is not of course, and I do not feel that way if others ask for my help, but it is very difficult to ask, and I am sure many others can relate.  And to add to that I don't ever think I need help or assistance, and that I can do everything on my own!! And I send the message loud and clear.  I guess its learning how to strike that balance, knowing people are available if needed,  and to not be resistant to asking or receiving.  I am learning, and I appeciate the lesson.

It is interesting as I reflect back, on how many different things I had to juggle last year.  My plate was overfilled with things I needed to accomplish. Work was so busy, I traveled every couple of weeks for a year. I loved my role and so wanted to keep up, it was a challenge at times, the priorities got taken care of, I went through a divorce.   It was nutty how busy I was.  Usually I thrive in an environment that is full on crazy busy, but there is a limit to how much you can have going on, and it did catch up to me.

I was going through the motions,  and did many things well. I tried to focus just on the priority of every aspect of my life. I had way to many priorities to keep up with!  I pride myself on being a great multi-tasker, but there are limits to our capabilities, I don't have a cape with an S on it... that provides me extra power, you can only take on and handle so many things, and eventually it catches up to you and things will start to fall through the cracks.  An imbalance will eventually catch up to you and presents itself in one way or another in your life.  You either see it which I did, or you rationalize it away, which I also did,  until  it resurfaces and a bigger brick hits you on the head and you are forced to realign or change a few things to bring you back on the right path. That's what happened to me. My Brick had a "BIG C " on it for change is necessary!

I am stubborn, I guess I didn't realize the depth of my stubbornness until this journey.  I would have described myself as easy going, roll with the flow, pretty laid back, positive which I am all of these things, but I didn't really use stubborn to describe myself.  Of course many others I have come to discover, do use this word to describe me lol.

I do not need to be in control of everything, no desire at all actually, very capable to delegate when I feel it is not something I need to look after. Not afraid to say NO! I don't have the need to control other's agenda's I am quite flexible and accomodating.  I only need to be in control of my destiny, create and focus on my balance, make my own decisions, of course recognizing that I need to work hard to balance that with the needs of my partner, my children, my family and my closest friends. My priority in everything I have taken on in life with family, business or other is developing great relationships. 

Will leave you with this affirmation that came to me through a few different friends.  Thank you to the Bourke girls for their wisdom and hearts, and Tammy as well, who have recommended the work of Louise Hay, which I would encourage any of you to read or listen or watch her CD'S, DVD's, she is very inspirational, and has life changing lessons that everyone can benefit from.

Deep at the center of my being there is an infinite-well of Love- I now allow this love to flow to the surface-It fills my heart, my body, my mind, my consciousness, my very being, and radiates out from me in all directions and returns to me multiplied. 

The more love I use and give the more I have to give -the supply is endless.  The use of love makes me feel good, it is an expression of my inner joy.  I love myself, therefore I take loving care of my body.  I lovingly feed it nourishing foods and beverages.  I love myself, therefore I provide myself a comfortable home, one that fills all my needs, and is a pleasure-to be in-  I fill the rooms with the vibration of love so that all who enter, myself included, will feel this love and be nourished by it.  I love myself therefore I work at a job that I truly enjoy doing, one that uses my creative talents and abilities, working with and for people, that I love and that love me, and earning a good income- I love myself therefore I behave and think in a loving way to all people-for I know that which I give out returns to me multiplied.  

I only attract loving people in my world for they are-a mirror of what I am. I love myself therefore, I forgive and totally release the past and all the past experiences and I am free.  I love myself therefore I live totally in the now, experiencing each moment as good and knowing that my future is bright and joyous and secure for I am a beloved child of the universe and the universe lovingly takes care of me now forever more and so it is.....