Dance Like Noone is Watching

I love to dance, it makes you feel so good to find a song that really moves you and you can just let yourself go. It is so freeing you can just let all your worries slip away and let yourself get lost in the music....I crave it these days. In the fight against cancer, you can can get so caught up in finding the right treatments, wondering if you are doing the right things, questioning the doctors, questioning everything. There is such a sense of urgency as you are learning and you are trying to make sense of it all, you are scared, and feel like you are in  the greatest race against time.

Sometimes you feel like you are outside of yourself looking in, because it is so surreal. Everyone becomes so worried about you, understandable,  questions what you should or should not be doing, you feel like you start to lose your voice, your identity.  I really havn't changed too much except for losing my hair I look the same, havn't lost any weight....I was excited about that part...and it hasn't happened!  I feel pretty healthy especially of late...my breathing issues are improving, I have not had to drag my O2 tank out, and I have put my bingo dobber away hopefully for good lol.  On paper my medical condition could scare the crap out of anyone and sometimes I lay awake playing the what if game...and then  I get very emotional thinking of my kids and everything I want to teach them, and share with them and everything I want to see them do and every major event coming up in their life, how I do not want them or I to miss out on anything.  You can't stay in this place long, but of course sometimes you go there.  You need to pull yourself up and remind yourself of all of your many blessings and continue to find the joy, find the positives, and to remind yourself that today is a gift, do not waste it, and do not forget to dance!

Here is a song that makes me want to dance...check it out....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5K7nNuB4gM&feature=fvst