I have had a good week, I am feeling better. My breathing has improved considerably and I am so thankful. I am finished round two of this new chemo, and it is manageable. The side affects include a lot of numbing to anything you touch that is cold or drink that is cold. You know it right away your throat constricts, your hands hurt and fingers go numb, it lasted for about 5 days, the full affect, and by day 6 and 7 it is there but it is not as intense.
I went into the office for the first time in almost five months, not to work but to reconnect with all of the wonderful people I have worked with. I was filled up with all the big hugs I received. They have all been so supportive and praying for me, they are a great group of individuals!!
A big shout out to McKillican Corporate!!!
The kids came in last night we all went out for dinner at Montannas, a steak restaurant with my brother Chris. We had a good time. My bro has been my chauffeur this week, and very patient taking me to place to place, I have a busy schedule. I started vitamin C injections which is supposed to be great for your immunity and fighting cancer, and mistletoe injections I give to myself, again supposed to give you more energy and break down the cancer cells...all good stuff!
The kids filled me up last night and when we got back they gave me two stuffed animals for Valentines Day that said I love you!!!!! So sweet they are next to my bed as I write.
Jay and I are going shopping for a tux for his grad in June, I am so excited. Likely more than he is, but it will be great, I love any and all the time we get to spend together.
5 Things I am grateful for Today:
- All of the amazing support and Prayers that I receive from family and friends my amazing girlfriends, and work associates. Thank you you guys, you are simply the best support group, and you have given me so much strength!
- For this illness, it has allowed me to really look deeply within some areas of my life that were out of balance, I have learned so much, and have worked on me and reflected a ton, and have new perspective...I have more work to do to get to the peace I crave, but I am so much closer!
- My children, our relationship has improved, our connection has deepened, we have come a long way. I am so proud of all of them, they have had a tough road at times, and they are facing this battle head on with me with dignity and grace, and positivity and they are learning perspective and am teaching them every opportunity I can the power of a positive attitude! We are working hard to enjoy the moments we spend together, finding the joy in all the time we do get to spend with one another.
- My Mom and Dad, I have to remember that this experience is not only happening to me it is happening to all of those closest to me, and their journey is a different one and has many moments of challenge, pain, and fear. My parents are so strong and they have taught me many things over my lifetime, and many of the values and experiences they have taught and shared with me have helped shape who I am today. I cant imagine what it is like to watch your child go through and deal with a serious illness. I can only put myself in their shoes and think of what it would be like if it was my children, and I would want to take all their struggles away, and go through it instead of them. This illness has brought us closer together, we appreciate each other more, make the time, spend the time, and enjoy the time we spend with each other.
- My partner, he has gone thorough so many changes, and sacrifices to allow himself to be closer to me. He has chosen to spend as much time as he can with me, to be my partner and to help me and love me through this difficult and joyful time. When it could be easier I am sure, especially in a new relationship, to turn away and move on in a different direction. I am so grateful for his love his committment and his support and kindness, and so very thankful to experience this journey with him.
Please watch this inspirational video by one of my Gurus, Robin Sharma.and some of his great quotes..I like him even more today as we share the same hairstyle!
A big take away: You have to be willing to take some chances in order to get all you want out of this life, out of your life. Run towards your fears.You want to be a person of action!! Be exceptional I know you can be!
Sweet SAM....I choose to be closer to you...to be your partner to help and to Love you through the good...the bad and the ugly. I am grateful for your commitment and support of me. I am ready for our Journey together.
ReplyDeleteHere is a short prayer for us all everyday:
May God heal your body and soul.
May your pain cease,
May your strength increase,
May your fears be released,
May blessings, love, and joy surround you.
Amen.