Strength & Courage!

Well we did it me and Mom got our first tattoo!  It is so cool, am so glad we did it.  It was my daughter's idea and she would have had it done on Saturday as well but she had a ball tournament the next day and she is getting it on her foot! So she will be tatted up over the next couple of weeks.  Rayanne picked out the tattoo, I love it it says Strength and Courage with the Cancer ribbon and the color blue which signifies Colon Cancer.

My Mom went first, she is so tough, I am so proud of her, not thinking tattoo was something high on her bucket list, but she did it for me and her support of the fight we are going through....I love her to pieces for it.  Am grateful as it is a first for the three of us and something very special that we share together and it bonds three generations together to help keep us focused on the tough battles life can throw at us today and everyday.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.


-Marianne Williamson

Fight and Flight!

Hello all, back from my trip a week ago, it was wonderful, the freedom of being able to travel after nine months of feeling trapped within the confinement of my current routine was such a great break.

It was great and really reminded me how fond of traveling I have become over the years, and that it makes me feel  so alive, engaged, full of excitement and adventure, how I adore that feeling. I landed in Denver where Jason met me. He had already put in 4000 miles on this trip before meeting up with me, we were really looking forward to traveling the next stretch together over the next four days!

We had much fun, took in a lot of beauty, and relaxed, laughed a ton, toured the largest beer brewery, that was in Denver... had some wonderful meals, it was great! Getting back, I was to start chemo last week, however my bloodwork was low off on one count, the netrifils, this count indicates that my bodies ability to fight off infection or viruses is or was extremely low, so I needed to put chemo off for another week...one month off of chemo. I have to say, I enjoyed the time off of chemo sooooo much!  However it is now time to get back to the battlefield ...back to fight the good fight!

They lowered my dose of chemo last week as it was starting to affect my hands too much, the affects are of this new drug have accumulated over the weeks and it hurts my hands to do certain things with them, but now on day 2 of chemo, it wasn't as bad as last round,  the side affects have been more manageable.

I have had to give into more nausea medication and sleeping pills for the first few days of chemo, I have been resistant to put many more drugs my body. I have had 44 years of being on antibiotiocs two times, so do not do great at keeping up with pills. I have had to give in as it does make me feel better, and allows me to carry on with regular routine, and that is truly most important right now!

My beautiful girl and I had a great walk last night she makes me laugh, she is so clever and witty, I love her personality, she has a wonderful blend of qualities that make her so very special, as do all of my boys and how equally special they all are, and I also enjoy some similarities that they all share in common!

5 things I am grateful for today:

1.  Jason's Ssupport, patience and unconditional.
2.  Being a Mom to my four beautiful Children;Jay, Ray, Joey and Tanner
3.  Laughter....How it does wonderful things to boost your spirits!
4.  My best friend nLisa for checking in every day, my cousin for her daily comforting, beautiful messages, my mom and her beautiful heart, my dad for all of his support, my brother for his love care and support and the wonderful special friends and support system that I know are always there for me.
5. Good Energy for day 2 of chemo! I did two big walks some weights and ab work, I have worked out   out 5 out of 6 days am back on a roll, and I  got alot accomplished today, yay!!

Some pics of the trip were taken in Banff on the way back the day was incredible! One of the most beautiful

places in the world!

Talk to you all soon!

Wishing all of us inner peace, great joy, and an abundance of love.....

S