Hello all, I had taken a little blogging break the last couple of weeks. I wasn't feeling particularly inspired,I had to dig deeper, do some further reflection, to try to pull myself up from a dip....am again back on track. I think life is like that or at least mine has been like that at different stages.
We get knocked down, and we get back up again. I usually start reading inspirational books and videos, I pray, listening to music is big for me and exercise. I am working hard at trying to live in the moment, to not get addicted to my story as we can and it prevents you from moving forward from creating the next exciting chapters of the story of your life.
Update on my health it's been positive, my blood clots are under control, wrist is on the mend, feeling good, chemo is wearing on me a bit mentally and physically, the side effects were tougher this time. I am walking lots and started to jog in spurts. Still doing the vitamin C injections, I have not been sick with a cold or flu since September. I struggle with discipline on diet,and taking my supplements..I keep trying! I am looking so forward to Jays grad. To seeing my kids dressed up, to seeing my firstborn experience a milestone, to enjoying the moment it will be wonderful and emotional I know.
Jason has been away for two weeks going on three..am missing him so! I was approved for travel and will be meeting him in Denver for a mini holiday and extra week off of chemo, and we will drive back together, I am so excited!! We are going to have fun it will be great! Its been nine months focused the new routine having cancer has put me on...I feel like a little bit of freedom has been granted, and I am going to enjoy every blissful moment!
Mothers day was wonderful the kids were great. We met my parents for a great walk the weather was perfect. We had a nice brunch. Jay put a new BBQ together for me, it took him 3 hours and he did not complain once! Rayanne is growing into a beautiful young women before my eyes. Joey has always got a twinkle of mischief in his eyes...he is full of hugs and love and care for his mom these days I am lapping every ounce of it up. Tanner has let down some of his walls, and we have grown closer, I am very grateful! Tabby my dear friend was up Mothers day weekend and her and Lisa and I spent some special time together. It was so nice, I love them so, and appreciate the connection we share. As I do all of my closest friends.If laughter is the best medicine, than I received large doses of it, probably zapped at least four tumors for sure!! How we can laugh! Thank you girls!
5 things I am grateful for today:
1. The warmth of sunshine that spring has brought
2. The flowers,the green grass, the budding of the trees so beautiful
3. The love of so many my partner, my children, my family, Jason's family I am so blessed
4. I am grateful for feeling so good despite some of my challenges, their are so many suffering with so much more pain ...through this illness, I am very very fortunate!
5. This moment.....
Sending my love to all who read and support me through my journey and through your own journeys I wish you joy and peace. As we struggle to learn the lessons and to apply them to our life, know that you're not alone and how special you are.
Will leave you with this quote by Marianne Williamson another spiritual guru I really learn from...
"Love is what we are born with, fear is what we learn. The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and prejudices, and the acceptance of love back in our hearts. Love is the essential reality and our purpose on earth. To be consciously aware of it, to experience love in ourselves and others, is the meaning of life. Meaning does not lie in things. Meaning lies in us."
Peace Out
S
We get knocked down, and we get back up again. I usually start reading inspirational books and videos, I pray, listening to music is big for me and exercise. I am working hard at trying to live in the moment, to not get addicted to my story as we can and it prevents you from moving forward from creating the next exciting chapters of the story of your life.
Update on my health it's been positive, my blood clots are under control, wrist is on the mend, feeling good, chemo is wearing on me a bit mentally and physically, the side effects were tougher this time. I am walking lots and started to jog in spurts. Still doing the vitamin C injections, I have not been sick with a cold or flu since September. I struggle with discipline on diet,and taking my supplements..I keep trying! I am looking so forward to Jays grad. To seeing my kids dressed up, to seeing my firstborn experience a milestone, to enjoying the moment it will be wonderful and emotional I know.
Jason has been away for two weeks going on three..am missing him so! I was approved for travel and will be meeting him in Denver for a mini holiday and extra week off of chemo, and we will drive back together, I am so excited!! We are going to have fun it will be great! Its been nine months focused the new routine having cancer has put me on...I feel like a little bit of freedom has been granted, and I am going to enjoy every blissful moment!
Mothers day was wonderful the kids were great. We met my parents for a great walk the weather was perfect. We had a nice brunch. Jay put a new BBQ together for me, it took him 3 hours and he did not complain once! Rayanne is growing into a beautiful young women before my eyes. Joey has always got a twinkle of mischief in his eyes...he is full of hugs and love and care for his mom these days I am lapping every ounce of it up. Tanner has let down some of his walls, and we have grown closer, I am very grateful! Tabby my dear friend was up Mothers day weekend and her and Lisa and I spent some special time together. It was so nice, I love them so, and appreciate the connection we share. As I do all of my closest friends.If laughter is the best medicine, than I received large doses of it, probably zapped at least four tumors for sure!! How we can laugh! Thank you girls!
5 things I am grateful for today:
1. The warmth of sunshine that spring has brought
2. The flowers,the green grass, the budding of the trees so beautiful
3. The love of so many my partner, my children, my family, Jason's family I am so blessed
4. I am grateful for feeling so good despite some of my challenges, their are so many suffering with so much more pain ...through this illness, I am very very fortunate!
5. This moment.....
Sending my love to all who read and support me through my journey and through your own journeys I wish you joy and peace. As we struggle to learn the lessons and to apply them to our life, know that you're not alone and how special you are.
Will leave you with this quote by Marianne Williamson another spiritual guru I really learn from...
"Love is what we are born with, fear is what we learn. The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and prejudices, and the acceptance of love back in our hearts. Love is the essential reality and our purpose on earth. To be consciously aware of it, to experience love in ourselves and others, is the meaning of life. Meaning does not lie in things. Meaning lies in us."
Peace Out
S
